What a surreality...⠀

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Before I started this journey I was clearly not as surrendered as I thought I was..⠀

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Shadows of shame..⠀

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Darkness of oppression..⠀

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Not being able to fully let go..⠀

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Uncertain of where I was heading..⠀

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Wandering in the mist..⠀

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Looking..⠀

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Searching..⠀

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I'd find some of myself but not all..⠀

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I was heading in all directions::⠀

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I felt discomfort and numbness..⠀

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Unable to feel free fully..⠀

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I felt like I was failing and falling..⠀

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I denied myself sexual and sensual pleasure..⠀

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I felt no one understood my mind, my body, my intentions..⠀

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So I kept a lot in..⠀

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But through this journey of deep self-discovery..⠀

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Numbness has turned to sparks of joy..⠀

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The sparks often erupted into intense pleasure..⠀

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No masks..⠀

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Finding myself fully at soul level..⠀

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Others have come into my life at soul level too..⠀

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I'm naked with no restrictions..⠀

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No barriers..⠀

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You see who I am ..⠀

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I can be, just be me